Thursday, June 18, 2015

The quest to find myself

Again, a huge gap of absence in this space. So many things I wanted to write, wanted to express but just didn't. I kept giving excuses to myself and others saying ‘I am not finding time’ and what not. The truth: I was just lazy. But I have started writing about Chanderkhani Pass and other trips that I went on. Hope I finish that soon.

Saw a movie yesterday ‘Julie and Julia’. It’s a kind of biopic of Julia Child. But who is she and why am I suddenly thinking about her?
I didn't know about her before watching the movie. After taking a lil help from Google – Julia Child is THE most famous cook in America. She is known to have brought French cooking to American home. The movie was about Julia’s journey of writing the book ‘Mastering the art of French Cooking’ and years later Julie’s attempt to try all of her recipes in a year.

What actually caught my attention is that Julia was somewhere around 40 when she started to LEARN cooking. Yes, you heard me right. She was over 40 years. This was one more inspiration in front of me shouting that age is no bar for anything. But am I old? I am just 26 at present. Isn't that young enough? But then why do I feel old? Why do I feel I can’t do anything more? Why have I become a bore?

I was so talkative, so full of life. What has happened to me? I can see a huge difference in me. But why? I really do not know. I don’t like the present me. I am super quite.

Bucket list for myself:
  • Get back to editing videos (lost my touch, though)
  • Learn Kathak (my longggg time wish)
  • Go for driving class
  • Bring my creative side out
  • Cooking? Baking? I used to love it. What happened?
  • Write! Write! Write! (please don’t be lazy)
  • Take care of myself
Husband keeps asking me to follow my dreams, he really wants me to do what I want to do? But what do I really want to do? What are my dreams? What is my passion? And why the hell am I so lost? Path is what I need to find. As of now, I promise I will do what I have said I will. *hopefully I keep my word this time at least*

Bon Appétit!

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